Yes, I am totally changing. I tried making an excuse yesterday and then remembered that excuses get me nowhere. I did my workout anyway.
Today I was completely depressed (serotonin levels are a mess today I am betting since it's my day off on the workout calendar) and I saw a picture of someone I used to know who has lost a ton of weight. I was always smaller than her and now she is teeny tiny. I was completely envious and burst into tears.
My loving husband reminded me that I am not doing this to be "beautiful" because I already am. I am not doing this to be smaller than someone else, either. I am doing this to be healthy and to be happy with my body. He told me that he is happy with me any way that I am and that I shouldn't get down on myself, ever. He is very right.
Everyone has their problems and I should have been happy that that girl got fit, not upset that she was fitter than me. It's in our nature to be jealous of others. A lot of the time we slag them off because we don't think we can have what they have. I didn't do that today but I have done it in the past and I have heard it a lot. "Real women have curves." "Men like meat, bones are for dogs", etc. Messages like these aren't positive for anyone. Let's stop attacking each other, ladies, and start helping each other be healthy and happy!